Today is our little boy's first birthday! We want so desperately to be with him today, but that is not the story we are walking. So, we decided to each write him a letter on this day to share with him later in life. It's the best way we can think to celebrate him... to share just a glimpse of how much he is loved by his mom and dad.
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Hey my little man! First of all HAPPY FIRST BIRTHDAY!!! Yay for you, and I must say one is a very big deal!
Daddy wants to tell you something about your birthday that you may not have known. So you were born on October 30th 2016, but mommy and daddy weren't there. In fact we weren't even with you when you turned one, crazy I know, but you will understand someday... Anyways mommy and daddy pastor a church in glenpool, and on October 29, 2016 we were busy setting up for a candy walk, and a movie on the lawn at our church. We got it all built/set up and the night started off swell! The candy walk went so good, the food was served to everyone who came, popcorn was popped, and we were getting everyone settled in for the movie. That's when mommy and daddy got a phone call. Your papaw (my daddy) was very sick, and we had been waiting and waiting for this phone call for so long. THE DOCTORS WERE GOING TO MAKE PAPAW FEEL BETTER! But we were gonna have to get him to Dallas so they could fix him, and that's what we did. We left our fun fest, went home, packed a bag, and drove to Dallas.
We were all so excited that papaw was going to finally get better, but minutes turned to hours, and by the morning we got the news that the doctors weren't gonna be able to make papaw feel better after all. It was a very sad and confusing day for all of us. Papaw had to just go home sick and there wasn't anything we could do for him. We were praying for a miracle on October 30th, and we all left Dallas thinking "man we wanted a miracle and we didn't get it today"!
But halfway around the world, God was actually busy working on our miracle. And wouldn't you know it, on one of the hardest days of our families lives, God gave you your first breath of air.
On October 30th, God gave us the best gift possible in a son who we wouldn't even know about for 7 more months!
Now here we are a year later, the doctors did eventual get papaw better, and we are just a few months away from meeting you face to face, our little miracle! I'll explain to you one day just how much of a miracle your little life is, but for now just know that you are indeed a miracle!
We are counting down the days, no matter how slow they seem to be ticking away, and we know that soon you will be in our arms forever! We love you more than we could possibly even express Micah Raju, and we can't wait to celebrate the rest of this sweet crazy life with you.
Happy birthday son!
Love,
Daddy!
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My son,
Today is your birthday! You have lived a full year in this world! A full year learning, growing, laughing, & crying.
I ache to be with you today.
In fact, this whole week leading up to this day has been a little emotional for your mom. I want to hold you, sing the birthday song, let you smash cake in your face for the first time (it's an American thing... we will teach you), watch you open presents, and force you to be interested and thankful for all of them.
I want to be with you and celebrate you. All these things are such a normal part of kids birthdays. I won't take them for granted anymore.
Normal.
The normal story is what I wish for sometimes. Because right now to me, normal = easy. Or at least easier than this... this walking through everyday since I saw your little face on my phone screen like a piece of me is on the other side of the world. Because it is. So with that ache comes the longing for normal. A story that looks like other stories, because I just want you here so bad.
But I don't let myself stay in that place for very long because you, my son, are not normal. Our story is not normal, and not in a million years would I ever want it to be. You are so unbelievably special, and your life and story will change the life and story of those around you one day. You see, we prayed for you. Not just a short prayer. We prayed for years, and God is good and He knew exactly what He was doing when He knit us together from two completely different places in the world.
Time and distance mean nothing to our God.
God knew the day you were born that you were ours. That gives me chills every time I think about it. I feel so humbled to be chosen to be in your story.
So, I may not be with you on this birthday, but I get the privilege of being there for every other one! We get to be your forever family and I will cherish every "not normal" moment of your life, Micah Raju.
I love you so much it hurts!
Happy Birthday!!!
Love,
Mom
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Hey my little man! First of all HAPPY FIRST BIRTHDAY!!! Yay for you, and I must say one is a very big deal!
Daddy wants to tell you something about your birthday that you may not have known. So you were born on October 30th 2016, but mommy and daddy weren't there. In fact we weren't even with you when you turned one, crazy I know, but you will understand someday... Anyways mommy and daddy pastor a church in glenpool, and on October 29, 2016 we were busy setting up for a candy walk, and a movie on the lawn at our church. We got it all built/set up and the night started off swell! The candy walk went so good, the food was served to everyone who came, popcorn was popped, and we were getting everyone settled in for the movie. That's when mommy and daddy got a phone call. Your papaw (my daddy) was very sick, and we had been waiting and waiting for this phone call for so long. THE DOCTORS WERE GOING TO MAKE PAPAW FEEL BETTER! But we were gonna have to get him to Dallas so they could fix him, and that's what we did. We left our fun fest, went home, packed a bag, and drove to Dallas.
We were all so excited that papaw was going to finally get better, but minutes turned to hours, and by the morning we got the news that the doctors weren't gonna be able to make papaw feel better after all. It was a very sad and confusing day for all of us. Papaw had to just go home sick and there wasn't anything we could do for him. We were praying for a miracle on October 30th, and we all left Dallas thinking "man we wanted a miracle and we didn't get it today"!
But halfway around the world, God was actually busy working on our miracle. And wouldn't you know it, on one of the hardest days of our families lives, God gave you your first breath of air.
On October 30th, God gave us the best gift possible in a son who we wouldn't even know about for 7 more months!
Now here we are a year later, the doctors did eventual get papaw better, and we are just a few months away from meeting you face to face, our little miracle! I'll explain to you one day just how much of a miracle your little life is, but for now just know that you are indeed a miracle!
We are counting down the days, no matter how slow they seem to be ticking away, and we know that soon you will be in our arms forever! We love you more than we could possibly even express Micah Raju, and we can't wait to celebrate the rest of this sweet crazy life with you.
Happy birthday son!
Love,
Daddy!
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My son,
Today is your birthday! You have lived a full year in this world! A full year learning, growing, laughing, & crying.
I ache to be with you today.
In fact, this whole week leading up to this day has been a little emotional for your mom. I want to hold you, sing the birthday song, let you smash cake in your face for the first time (it's an American thing... we will teach you), watch you open presents, and force you to be interested and thankful for all of them.
I want to be with you and celebrate you. All these things are such a normal part of kids birthdays. I won't take them for granted anymore.
Normal.
The normal story is what I wish for sometimes. Because right now to me, normal = easy. Or at least easier than this... this walking through everyday since I saw your little face on my phone screen like a piece of me is on the other side of the world. Because it is. So with that ache comes the longing for normal. A story that looks like other stories, because I just want you here so bad.
But I don't let myself stay in that place for very long because you, my son, are not normal. Our story is not normal, and not in a million years would I ever want it to be. You are so unbelievably special, and your life and story will change the life and story of those around you one day. You see, we prayed for you. Not just a short prayer. We prayed for years, and God is good and He knew exactly what He was doing when He knit us together from two completely different places in the world.
Time and distance mean nothing to our God.
God knew the day you were born that you were ours. That gives me chills every time I think about it. I feel so humbled to be chosen to be in your story.
So, I may not be with you on this birthday, but I get the privilege of being there for every other one! We get to be your forever family and I will cherish every "not normal" moment of your life, Micah Raju.
I love you so much it hurts!
Happy Birthday!!!
Love,
Mom
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