You know those moments in your life when time sort of stands still? Like a good photo that focuses on one thing and everything else is blurred?
There are a few moments in mine that have this description:
Bodie getting down on one knee...
Taking my dad's arm right before walking down the aisle to be married...
The birth of both our girls...
A few specific moments spent in the presence of Jesus...
And a few sudden tragedies that took my breathe away...
There isn't much else that fits in this category, or at least there wasn't until June 1, 2017.
The phone rings.
Caller ID reads America World (our agency) and literally everything else goes blurry. I knew that it could be any day and had already been driving myself crazy with the waiting even though it had only been a week!
I was actually on the phone when I got the call and I couldn't even find the words to say so I actually hung up on the person without saying a word so I could switch lines (I later called and apologized once I was able to re-gain my composure!)
I was instantly trembling. So many thoughts. So many emotions.
This is it! This is THE CALL!
Breathe.
Our family coordinator began to talk and we pulled Bodie in on the conversation (who was on a job site). I tried to absorb everything she was saying, but everything was still blurred. For some reason at that moment my nerves were so strong that I became obsessed with my footwear. I took my sandals off and put them back on at least 5 times during a 5 minute conversation.
Bless my heart.
We were given a brief description of a 7 month old baby boy needing a forever family, and then asked if we would like to see his file and review this referral?
Uhhh... yes please.
Then we hang up.
Of course Bodie and I are back on the phone with just each other in a about .2 seconds and we wait for the email.
THE EMAIL.
When it comes in, we time it so we can see everything at the same time and the first things to pop up is his picture.
Simple words don't do this moment justice. All I could do was cry. My heart has longed for this for so long.
Y'all, he is gorgeous. He has these huge eyes, beautiful milk chocolate skin, and loose curls in his stunning black hair.
I am actually overwhelmed in this moment, not only by his beauty, but by HIS beauty.
It was a supernatural experience.
This is our son.
There was no real discussion needed between Bodie and I... we just knew. It was exactly the way I dreamed the moment would be... actually, it was more.
Fast forward to today and we have officially accepted the referral and the orphanage has approved the match!
I wish I could blast his picture for all to see, but we are legally bound to wait! Boo!
We are currently living in a dream world. I look at his picture an infinite amount of times a day. He has already changed my life.
When I look at his face, I am overcome by God's faithfulness. Like a wave crashing over me again and again.
Through all the years, all the work, all the money, all the tears, all the heartache, all the waiting, and all of the unknown, He was faithful.
He IS faithful.
I see it through my son.
Don't give up on the dream He has placed in your heart. Don't lose heart on the calling He has placed on your family. Just because there are roadblocks, or in our case seemingly unmovable mountains in the middle of the road doesn't mean He isn't there. One of my favorite worship songs at the moment has lyrics that speak right into this...
Take courage my heart
Stay steadfast my soul
He's in the waiting. He's in the waiting
Hold onto your hope, as your triumph unfolds
He's never failing. He's never failing
Let our son's story be encouragement to your soul. Just as it has been for mine.
Zoom in on His faithfulness.
Find Him in the waiting.
And let everything else become blurry.
There are a few moments in mine that have this description:
Bodie getting down on one knee...
Taking my dad's arm right before walking down the aisle to be married...
The birth of both our girls...
A few specific moments spent in the presence of Jesus...
And a few sudden tragedies that took my breathe away...
There isn't much else that fits in this category, or at least there wasn't until June 1, 2017.
The phone rings.
Caller ID reads America World (our agency) and literally everything else goes blurry. I knew that it could be any day and had already been driving myself crazy with the waiting even though it had only been a week!
I was actually on the phone when I got the call and I couldn't even find the words to say so I actually hung up on the person without saying a word so I could switch lines (I later called and apologized once I was able to re-gain my composure!)
I was instantly trembling. So many thoughts. So many emotions.
This is it! This is THE CALL!
Breathe.
Our family coordinator began to talk and we pulled Bodie in on the conversation (who was on a job site). I tried to absorb everything she was saying, but everything was still blurred. For some reason at that moment my nerves were so strong that I became obsessed with my footwear. I took my sandals off and put them back on at least 5 times during a 5 minute conversation.
Bless my heart.
We were given a brief description of a 7 month old baby boy needing a forever family, and then asked if we would like to see his file and review this referral?
Uhhh... yes please.
Then we hang up.
Of course Bodie and I are back on the phone with just each other in a about .2 seconds and we wait for the email.
THE EMAIL.
When it comes in, we time it so we can see everything at the same time and the first things to pop up is his picture.
Simple words don't do this moment justice. All I could do was cry. My heart has longed for this for so long.
Y'all, he is gorgeous. He has these huge eyes, beautiful milk chocolate skin, and loose curls in his stunning black hair.
I am actually overwhelmed in this moment, not only by his beauty, but by HIS beauty.
It was a supernatural experience.
This is our son.
There was no real discussion needed between Bodie and I... we just knew. It was exactly the way I dreamed the moment would be... actually, it was more.
Fast forward to today and we have officially accepted the referral and the orphanage has approved the match!
I wish I could blast his picture for all to see, but we are legally bound to wait! Boo!
We are currently living in a dream world. I look at his picture an infinite amount of times a day. He has already changed my life.
When I look at his face, I am overcome by God's faithfulness. Like a wave crashing over me again and again.
Through all the years, all the work, all the money, all the tears, all the heartache, all the waiting, and all of the unknown, He was faithful.
He IS faithful.
I see it through my son.
Don't give up on the dream He has placed in your heart. Don't lose heart on the calling He has placed on your family. Just because there are roadblocks, or in our case seemingly unmovable mountains in the middle of the road doesn't mean He isn't there. One of my favorite worship songs at the moment has lyrics that speak right into this...
Take courage my heart
Stay steadfast my soul
He's in the waiting. He's in the waiting
Hold onto your hope, as your triumph unfolds
He's never failing. He's never failing
Let our son's story be encouragement to your soul. Just as it has been for mine.
Zoom in on His faithfulness.
Find Him in the waiting.
And let everything else become blurry.
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